Dear Occult Site Owners,
I was recently informed that I was tied in with Tammy AKA Devilwoman from the Vampir Metrou. It was explained to me that she was getting blamed for my spamming your sites. So to make things clear, and definitely not helping my case at all, I want you to know I spammed your sites on my own deplorable accord. I don't mean that sarcastically either I am very sorry for my actions and not for the reasons you might think. So if you could please hear me out.
So there is no misunderstanding... No one can make me do anything, I am not a follower by any means not that I wouldn't mind you thinking that at the moment but to think that would be inaccurate. Tammy although not an innocent person of much, is not the reason I acted as I did. I chose to spam your sites on my own. First I did it while I was a administrator at the Vampir Metrou, then after I left the Metrou and created my own site I did it from my own site, for benefit of my own site. I was told that there is a message going out to all that they should be weary of the sn Regigse, I also go by Obtusetongue, Aria Van Sell, and at Yule/Christmas/Saturnalia I go by Saturnclaus sometimes. Just so we are clear Tammy bares no responsibility for my actions. Not that I have any loyalty to this person because I do not. I am not telling you this to help her because I don't really care what goes on with her. I am telling you this because I will take responsibility for my own actions.
Why I am sorry... I stated I am sorry but not for the reasons you probably think. I am not sorry because you all have a low opinion of me, or that it has created a backlash. I can take the repercussions to my actions whatever they are going to be... I am not just admitting to just the site owners I victimized but to all of Ning where I may have some very stiff penalties and perhaps even lose my site which I truly hope won't be the case. That being stated, that is in part why I am posting this here. I am telling you this because I believe you deserve the truth, again I am certain it doesn't reflect me in a positive light however to go on otherwise would be only be disrespecting all of you more.
Yes believe it or not have a sense of morality and I am usually very strict with myself. I have for the majority of my life gave till it hurts, was honorable even though I did not get it in return, trustworthy although it always came back to bite me in the ass and even trustworthy to those after they were less then worth it. To be quite blunt for the past year, well before Ning and these forum sites I got fed up and said enough I am done being walked all over, and with that attitude gave in to what I always swore would never happen which is... Regardless of how I am treated or how things go, I promised myself, I will not let how others behave or act change me.
So I am sorry for a couple of reasons... One because it created problems for everyone of you, and for you sites as well, as invoked ill feelings. Two, because I went against my code of ethics that makes me less of a person to myself, which is very sacred to me. There is a poem I grew up with and read everyday... Part of it goes like this. "I must be fit for myself, I want as days go by to always be able to look myself in the eye." When I go against my own structure of morals I have less trust and confidence in myself. In this life I have found I am the only one I can really count on so when I lose that I have nothing left.
I do not know any of your personally I don't have a connection to any of you that makes me feel terrible to any of you individually. However I have always had a profound love for human kind. So although I do not have a personal connection to any of you, I do feel a universal connection and facing the fact that I disrespected that has lead me to feeling the shame for my insensitivities towards what you have all worked so hard to create.
So here is where I am at, I am apologizing because I am sincerely sorry. I can respect the fact that you may not care. I also respect the fact that you probably do not believe me. I am doing this to help myself and hopefully to send the message to all of you that will somehow validate your concerns that I created for you and to assure you I will not abuse your sites again (If Ning doesn't already take care of that for you seeing as though I have made this very public). I don't expect you to trust me after this, I do not expect anything in return. I believe I owe all of you at least this much, even those sites I have not molested with my spamming.
Lastly I would like to invite all of you to advertise your site on our site. We have created a group called Peddlers Pass. That group was specifically set up for site owners, on and off line store owners, crafts etc can advertise to our members... This also includes if you would have just individual items you would like to sell. You would have to join the site to utilize it, there will be no expectations at all from any of you to participate outside of Peddlers Pass besides to maintain your advertisement. As well monthly we will be sending out a Feature Broadcast highlighting all the sites, stores etc.
can you please post a link?
I really dont know why my name, my site is brought into this....
It seems if you got someone saying crap about you, clear your name without talking about mine or my site.
I think its unprofessional.